Help.
You will always offer it to others.
You’re willing to do it.
However, receiving it?
Yeah, we’d rather go get a root canal before receiving it.
Do you feel me on this? I HATE asking for help. More times, I figure that the only person I can truly count on is me. Numero Uno. You don’t want to show weakness or neediness. You don’t want to impose on others. You just don’t want to ask for it.
Throughout my life, I’ve been hurt and disappointed in others. Partly because I never had a solid crew of people that I could count on. Instead, I settled for superficial ones where I would make myself small and allow someone else to steal the show. I know, crazy right? And like clockwork, these “friends” would leave. I’m not saying that I was completely innocent in these situations, but these friendships could not withstand anything outside the pretty little box with the nice bow.
It made me feel empty inside.
I wasn’t good enough .
People don’t want to be my friend.
I was flawed and could easily be tossed aside.
Over time, I sought out talk therapy to dive deeper into this fear of rejection. This inadequacy stemmed from my childhood, but I will leave it at that. Over time, I began to find my voice, to seek stronger, more fulfilling relationships. From finally finding my forever love Charles to friendships that could withstand the tests of time. Now, this doesn’t mean that every decision is a good one. You just don’t know if a person in your life is meant to stay there until you’re in it. Learning my true self and surrounding myself with amazing people. Surprisingly, these friendships were developed from being brand ambassadors for good skincare. Funny how the universe leads you to exactly what you need in life.
While I still struggle with asking for help with everything, its becoming easier to not think of help as a sign of weakness or failure. But giving me the opportunity to GROW. To become a better version of myself that’s flawed, unapologetic, and more kind.
Asking for help is not a four letter word.
It’s actually 10 letters:
empowering.